Wednesday, October 20, 2010

kehilangan...

ermmm... korg pnah rase x cmne ilang org yg kte syg??....
bkn ilang kejap...p ilang ntok slamenye..
ilang dari dunia ni,,, in other words, MENINGGAL DUNIA.
ermmm.
awl2 ari 2.. ak cm x trase sgt khilangn die..
mybe sjak da msok u ni ak da x slalu dok ngn die..
mybe alsn nye sbb ak jaoh,,, bile cuti, ak sebok nk dok uma.. nk jmpe kwn...
sdg kn die slalu ajk dok ngn die..
tmankn die kt uma biq,,, ajk g jb....
p ak x dpt wt sume 2... sbb nye..
at dat time..
ak ase,,, byk ag mase ak bley spend ntok die nati...
ak lbey pntingkan bnde laen....
skang ni ak nyesal sgt...' nyesal x dpt wat sume 2 ntok die.....
sdey.....
da la ak x smpat jmpe die b4 die operate...
ak juz smpat tgk aftr operate,, at dat time, die da x ley ckp,x bley senyum, x bley cium ak,
die kt icu.. x stabil.... tgn n kaki die da lbam.. dctor kate time operate drh die rndh,, so drh x smpai kt ujung2 jari 2........ ak sdey sgt biler tgk k'adaan die cm 2....
emg ak nages je spnjang ak tgk die 2..
x lme pas 2... die da bley bkak mate...
ak pon blek u blek..
sbb ingtkn die da stabil.
2-3 pas 2... akak ak ckp die da ok..
da bley ckp.
juz die sdey ngn tgn n kaki die..
ak pon ase lega la cket...
tbe bpe ari pas 2...
akak ak col..
die mkin trok..
conditon x stabil
ad infection plak kt lung,,,
ak risau sgt..
ak tros crik tket,,,
nk blek tgk die..
seb bek ad tket..
mse tgk die.
emg nmpk die suffer,,
bgntung kt machine 2.
ktorg bce yasin rmai2.
ad ustz 2 soh ktorg mtk maap ngn die..
sbb tkot pape nati..
ak sdey gler..
ermm..
mlm 2 ak blek dungun blek.
ak ckp kt mak.
pas clas sok ak nk blek kl blek
mak x kc
mak ckp plajaran pnting,, pastu ak mrh mak..ak ckp ak blek pon ak x bknnye bley pay att.
pkrn ak kt cni jgk..
pastu mak diam
mak ckp ske ati ak la
ak pon blek je dungun,,,
da smpai dungun ak cm lupe ngn condition die..
hanyut dgn dunia ak..
gnap 10 ari puase.
31.8.2009..
lpas mgrb
k.chik col.
die ckp
die rase wan da x ad..
tp dr. x cnfrmkn ag....
ak sdey..
p ak x ckp ngn org..
ak tros pack brg..
ak ckp ngn rmte ak
wan ak sakit ag,,
ak col afz
ak ckp kt die..
die soh ak sbr..
sbb x cnfrm ag...
ak da ckp kt die,,
papehal nti anta ak g busten.
x lme pastu
along lak col ak...
die pon ckp cm k.cik..
die nanges2..
ak jd sdey gler...
p ak thn..
ak wt cm bese jew..
dlm 8 lbey,,,
k.cik col ak..
die ckp wan da xad..
\ dctr da cnfrmkn
ak tros amek beg, col afz n tros g bsten
smpai kt bsten..
ak tros nk bli tket..
tp tket x ad..
hari merdeka kn..
rmai org blekk
time 2
ak xpat than sdey ag..
ak nanges je kt dpn afz..
pastu abg tket 2 cm cian kt ak..
die ckp die try adjustkn
tgu la bus yg kol 10..
seb bek ad tmpt ntok ak..
dlm bus,,
bru ak msg kwn2 ak
bru ak gtaw..
ermm..
spatutnye kol 6 lby da smpai..
p mlg nye nseb ak
bus 2 tbe2 osak
lme gler
ak soh k.cik amek ak kt tmpt bus osak 2..
kt area jasin la
dlm kol 9 lbey bru k.cik smpai..
dlm kol 10, ak smpai uma..ak isau x pat tgk wan ntok kali t'akhir..
ak smpai dorg kate dorg tgah mndikan wan..
smpai je uma wan.. ak slm biq,, ude,, sume..
ak x ley thn..
ak nages jew..
dorg soh ak g mndikn wan..
p dorg kate nk mndikan wan x ley nages..
ak tgk je dr jaoh
ak x ley nk wtpe..
ak nanges jew..
lpas siapkn wan,,
dorg panggil sape2 nk cium n tgk wan ntok last time..
ak nanges jew...
dorg soh thn...
jgn nanges..
ak cium wan..
ak pgang muke wan...
pastu ak dok je tpi wan..
tgu org lain cium wan..
lpas sume da tgk wan,,
dorg bwk wan naek ats ntok smyg
lpas tu bru smpn wan...
ermmm....
kalo korg syg org 2...'
tunjukkn la mcm mane kte syg kn die..
sblm tlmbt...
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date sbnar ak tlis post ni ialah pd 30/10/2009,,,jumaat,,,,11.04 pm
actly entry ni kt blog lame ak,,,
ak nk close da blog tu,,,
tp ak syg dgn entri ni,,,
so ak copy la kt cni,,,,,
ermm,...
adk rndu wan,,,,,
ermm,,,,,
,, al-fatihah untuk arwah wan ak,,,
hjh asmah mohamad.....

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

kemalasan melanda.....

kemalasan dtg ag,,,huhu,,,
adeh,,,
ape nk wt?
nk wt report pon x lrat...
x lrat ber pk,,, hahha
yg ak mampu
on9
on9
on9
on9
tb
tb
tb
hahahah
giler da ak ni,,,
report bru sparuh
huhu,,
cmne tuh??
heheh
adeh,,,

Friday, October 15, 2010

soryy,,, no mood to update,,,

too bz lar,,, huhu,,,,
juz,,,
my life getting better n great...
vry bz wit my reportt,,,
uwaaa,,, huhuhu

Sunday, October 10, 2010

adakah ianye slamenye....

adakah ak akan begini slamenye...
ak x taw...
smpai bile ak nk mcm ni...
ak x taw,,,
sumtimes i feel tired,,,
feel like want to go somewhre else..
somewhere dat no one no me,,,
somewhere dat nobody can find me,,,
boley ke?
nk crik ketenangan la mksod laen nye,,,,
ermmm,,,
dun no la,,,,

dun noe...

i dun noe la
no feelings...
t0 do the report,,,
to buat kje rumah,,,
to talk.....
to ape2 pon la,,,
pesal ntah,,,]
mybe sbb bru bgn kot,,,'
nth,,,
ase cm nk mrh pon ad jew,,,
p nk mrh kt sape plak?
x kn tibe2 jew nk maen mrh2 kn,,,
hurmmm,,,,
ntah laaaa....
papai....

Monday, October 4, 2010

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hope awk da puas ati buat idop sy cmni,,,
hope awk bley epi...
sy hanye doa ,,,
smoge allah sje yg blas 'jasa' baek awk ni,,,,
dan,,
sy mtk,,
allah pnjang kn jdoh sy dgn die,,,
dan
sy mtk,,
allah beri ptunjuk kpd awk,,
allah beri kn awk smangat untok teros idop tnpa sy..
allah buka kn hati awk untok wanita lain..
amin...

sy akan cube idop tnpa die disisi sy

mgkin awk boley ptus kn hbungn sy dan die...
tp awk x boley ptus kn kasih syg sy pd die,,,,

atas ape yg awk da buat pd sy,,,
sy redha,,,
smoge awk brubah,,,
smoge awk dpt perempuan yg lbey memahami jiwa awk...
smoge awk bhgier.....

Sunday, October 3, 2010

saket,,,
ape hak die nk wt ak cmni,,,
ak xtaw
xtaw
cinta x boley dpksa...
y force me......

Friday, October 1, 2010

(^^)

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage."
--Lao Tzu


thanx eb.....

thanx 4 forgive me...
thanx 4 giving me chance...
thanx 4 loving me ....
thanx 4 everything...
i luv u...
today,tomorrow n 4ever...
thanx.......